Merry Xmas to all!

It's been hard in Australia this past month with the Sydney Siege a couple of weeks ago and the Gold Coast Siege that happened on Christmas. I just want to say my heart goes out to all those families. I know that my mum was fairly close to the Sydney Siege and I was terrified. I know it's been hard but I hope everyone could still enjoy their holidays with the people they love.

Sorry about the delayed Christmas post, I completely forgot that I was even writing it. But to all who read this, I truly hope you enjoy your holidays and have a happy new year. Also don't go completely bonkers over the boxing day sales. They're not worth it.

Ships

So I decided to write my ships in a separate page because there got to be too many.

So here it is:

Awkward: Matty/Jenna - Jake/Tamara - Austin/Sadie 

Charmed: Piper/Leo - Phoebe/Coop - Page/Henry

Glee (Stopped after S3): Rachel/Finn - Kurt/Blaine - Britney/Santana

How I met your mother: Barney/Robin - Marshall/Lily - Ted/Robin (Not as much as Barney/Robin though)

Misfits: Nathan/Marnie - Kelly/Seth - Simon/Alisha

Modern Family - Haley/Dylan

Skins (TBU) : Sid/Cassie

Big Bang Theory: Leonard/Penny - Sheldon/Amy 

The Vampire Diaries: Elena/Damon - Stefan/Caroline

White Collar: Neal/Peter

Divergent: Four/Tris

Fifty Shades Of Grey: Ana/Christian - Mia/Ethan - Kate/Elliot

Hunger Games: Katniss/Peeta - Gale/Madge - Finnick/Annie

Avengers: Hawkeye/Black Widow

Supernatural: Dean/Castiel - Dean/Jo - Sam/Gabriel - Dean/Charlie (Brotp)

Doctor Who: 10/Rose - Amy/Rory - 11/River

Sherlock: Sherlock/John

Beautiful Disaster: Maddog/Pigeon - Mare/Shepley

Harry Potter: Lily/James - Harry/Ginny - Ron/Hermione - Luna/Neville - Harry/Luna ( Brotp)

Looney Toons: Lola/Bugs Bunny

Community: Annie/Jeff - Chang/Himself - Britta/Jeff - Troy/Abed (Brotp)

SNL: Stefon/Seth

Shameless: Ian/Mickey - Ian/Lip (Brotp) - Lip/Mandy - Fiona/Mike - Ian/Mandy (Brotp)

TBWSIMBW: Amber/Liam - Liam/Jake (Brotp)

Twilight: Jake/Ness - Wolves/Imprints (Canon) - Cullens/(Canon mates)

City of Bones (TBU) : Clary/Jace - Simon/Jace

American Horror Story (TBU) : Tate/Violet - Kit/Grace - Teresa/Leo - Travis/Shelly - Zoe/Kyle

Appreciation

Taking things for granted is the bane existence of humanity. We take food, water, shelter all for granted and we don't realise it. I mean they are essential needs to human beings but we just take it and don't know what we've done. But the number one thing I think we, as humans, take advantage of the most, is other humans. No I'm not saying this to make the headlines of the news but I'm saying it as a matter of fact and my opinion.

Why do people do that? Why do I do it? I know that I do it. I do it to my mum, for example I know that I sometimes forget to truly appreciate some of the little gifts she gives me. I take advantage of my best friend because I know she's reliable. 

I want to apologise for all the people who I have taken advantage of... even if it was something small, I'm sorry. It's inexcusable when I do something shitty to someone but even worse when I try and blame it on my past experience. Just because there have been times when people have done one over on me, doesn't mean that I should take it out on another person... So can someone answer why humanity does this to us? Why on Earth do we take people for granted? 

If people (or you) answer – love. Then I don't accept that. I found someone (Contemplation and Contentment) that loves me and doesn't take advantage of me. He has been amazing to me and never pressured me for anything and has always said thank you to me for something.

There is never going to be a day when there isn't someone, somewhere in the world taking someone for granted. I mean yeah it hurts, so why do we do it? And why don't we take a moment to appreciate something beautiful for a beat? They're the questions I want answered.

Contemplation and Contentment

I started looking up. 

I didn't go out and actually look for him. That would have taken forever, especially seeing as I didn't know what he looked like. All I knew is that he existed and that he was here. He didn't have to be waiting for me, hell, he could have been with some other girl. (In fact he was, [Lucky girl] but that's story for another time.) All I was saying is that he was out there.

When I went through a rough patch I had friends and family to tell me that it was all okay. “Get cracking with your life and don't waste another minute.” They all said... so I did. I went on with my life and embraced all my joys. I did things that I liked, I went to conventions and had the time of my life with friends. 

Thats how it all led me to him, like a magnet. I didn't expect it but I certainly welcomed it. Doing the things that I enjoy led me to a whole new place where I wanted to be. A happier place filled with so much love and contentment that it blinded me for a little while. Just because I met another human being * gasp! * I know, it does sound like something straight out of a fanfiction or romance novel but there it was and it blew me away, (Literally, he tried to blow me up in a creeper jacket) But it was so beautiful.

Christmas 2014

It was the 8th of December and Christmas was approaching. Fast.

Christmas was something I always looked forward but no doubt every year, stressed me out.

I had planned everyone’s gifts out, except for Kristen, who’s gift I still didn’t know would be. I had gotten something small but meaningful for B-Dizzle. I had gotten some punny for Mr. Calvi (brownies with a hash tag on the container). I wanted to get Oscar something practical whilst still being a toy at the same time. I would get Lesty what she actually wanted. I would get Annemarie, my KK, a new fragrance as well as my grandmother. My dad would get something along the lines of what he asked for. My mum would get a gift that she completely forgot about and Ben well… I worked hard to find Ben things that he wanted not just for Christmas but his birthday too.

In the end though, it just doesn’t seem like this year was a good Christmas year. I feel like I’m the only one who’s actually excited. It saddens me that it isn’t like what it used to be where we would all go to my grandmother’s place on my dad’s side and have a good time with the entire family. Now it seems it’ll never happen again.

It's my blog and I'll rant if I want to.

Lately things have been getting more and more stressful, for a number of things in my life. It gets hard but I still get through it. And you know how I get through it, by fucking ranting. I choose not to do it verbally because I'm not a complete bitch, but if I want to write down my feelings into my blog because it's less hurtful than yelling at people for no reason, then I'm going to do it. This is how I express myself and you choose to continue to read this, full knowing I'm just ranting about ranting. I'm not going to go all 2007 Britany Spears on you but I think I'm entitled to a little bitch fest every now and then.

In saying that things have been really busy lately but I'm going to try and post as much as I can. I'll also be changing up the blog a little so it isn't so much a blog from when I was 13 to a more modern version of me.

Post soon,
Amber x